and I’m terrified.

So, I’ve been talking to staffing agencies here in Chicago. They are none too optimistic. I took yesterday off cuz I couldn’t bear to come in. I sit here now dreading the rest of the day. Part of me says, “If you quit, there is no income…you can’t live like that.” The other part of me says, “what’s the point, you’re boss can’t pay you anyway! So you are wasting you time here and not getting a paycheck, it’s the same thing.” I dread leaving for work in the morning… DREAD IT! I pittle around the place, straightening up, doing dishes, playing with the cats….. OH GAWD! it’s awful!

I’m scared I won’t be able to find a job! I apply to places everyday. Some of them two and three times.