went out with some aquaintences the other night. I wouldn’t really call them friends as I have not hung out with them that many times. it was a good time… considering the past week I have wanted to jump off a cliff. Teetering on the edge of sanity and suicide is a bad place to be. I’m a few steps back from the edge… but it’s hard to be the strong person everyone seems to think you are. I’m headed home in two weeks to see family…. I’m SO not gonna want to come back!